Not One Of My Good Days

Today was not so good. The episodes not getting better. I know I need to go to the doctor but I'm scared. I'm scared that will make me check into the hospital. I know it's too much for my mother to take care of 2 little babies. Their dad is working long hours right now. 

I just don't want to put that on her. Tired head hurting but I'm still putting on the 2 minute videos. I need to start making videos on YouTube but I'm not up to it. I'm sleep half of the day. 

I had to stop driving because it was becoming to dangerous for me. I got to admit I'm scared I can't stand the thought of not being here for my little crew. I love them like crazy.

* on a funny note my 15 month old decided to take the leap jump behind the bed. I was doing something my daughter said ma the baby is in the bed. When I looked I didn't see him. I looked behind the headboard and there he was smiling. 

Good night 

Nikki Love Bringing You Love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️